Anonymous: Yer bein' catfished hard

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Asked and answered on May 22nd, 2015.

I got the warnings, not only from this anon but also a tumblr user whose name I already forgot. I saw the fallacies, I knew of the previous lies, I understood the risk of keeping going this way.

And yet I told them to not worry, to let me enjoy the moment, to let me fool myself. To be happy.

I was expecting this day, and expecting it to never happen.
Thinking how to deal with it when the time came, a time I did not want to come.
I was prepared. I did not want to be prepared, I was happy.

For that, I thank you.

chefpyrosjunk-deactivated201707: The list of reasons why our relationship would be impossible is unreasonably long but I want you to know that doesn't mean I don't adore you. As far as adoration is a thing I am capable of, that is.

Something like 13 months ago I got this ask, few weeks after the thing, and since then I’ve kept it on the ask box, waiting for a time when it could finally be used for something. This is not what I expected to use it for.

In all this time, reading these words would give me strength, cheer me up daily, because despite the way it was worded, it touched me deep. Like Peridot’s “wow, thank you”, a phrase you needed to read knowing this person enough to understand the weight of their words.

For that, I thank you.

Today the ask box goes back to zero.